LONESOME GUY IN A LONELY WORLD

An early morning, I woke up knowing that something will be different today. Something that have to do with changing environment. Changing to a new environment that I once desired. Not only I desired, but many hopefuls wanted to join these new environment. Yes, I am going to a new school, a new place, a new adventure, a new obstacle...

It took me awhile to realise that I am no longer an SRJCian anymore. Accepting the change, I have no choice but to do that.

So, today is the 2nd day of my new JC life. I set foot upon the main entrance, with hopes that today will be a special day. The day started with meeting with my OG friend whom I know for not more than 5 hours. I started chatting a bit with him, getting to know him better as he may prove useful someday. We had a briefing on the LEVEL CAMP but for some reason, they refuse to call it a motivational camp.

GP lecture was up next and a sudden mass movement occured. I wondered deeply why are they moving. I thought they were planning to skip the GP lecture but I was wrong. They were moving to find their friends, their peers, their buddies. I wondered very deeply why weren't I moving. Then I realised I don't really have any good friends. The feeling of lonely gripes me tight. I felt so lonely for the 1st time of my life in my adolescent era.

A 1 hour break. Once again, I stood there wondering where to go. I went to library and sat there reading newsapaper. A couple of moments later, I finished it. So I decided to take a tour around the school. As I take the tour, I saw friends playing around, chatting, discussing their work. It is then I realise the importance of a peer group. A group with fimilar interests and personality. I kinda of envy my guangyang classmates in NYJC. They have all settled down and already have a group of friends while I am going nowhere. But nevermind, orientation is coming up and I must be optimistic to survive this obstacle.

It was lessons again and I sat alone in the upper back rows. I tried to talk to a ex-SRJCian but he seems to lack the interest of communicating with me. And so he went off looking for his secondary school friends instead. So I was left alone once again, thrice today, thrice the feeling of loneliness grip me hard and tight. Lesson eventually come to an end and I have another 2 hours break. Striking me hard again, I have the onerous task of keeping myself busy. I have nobody to talk to so I went to a quiet spot and did some memories backtrack with my CG friends back in SRJC. Well, this is life. You can't be with them forever...

A lot of thoughts went through my mind, friends, family, companionship. These are all crucial factors of life. Without them, you are as good as dead...

Signing off....